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Name: Stephie
Birthday: 2/9/1992
Gender: Female
Interests: .anime.manga.smiles.chillin' wif my azns.
Occupation: student =3
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Member Since:
10/12/2006
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| I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it throughAnd then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all againJust want you to know
- JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW, BACKSTREET BOYS
perfect song to describe how i feel about K still.. *sigh* FUCK BREAKUPS.
wayy too long since i've posted LOL, it's not my fault, i've been like addicted to tumblr :)
soo if you wish! tumble me! haha, bitterxlemon obv. later days for now !
-- sor mui ! :) | | |
| gr.. kyle's birthdayy, i'm supposed to go to dinner / some thing to celebrate with him, daniel and anneli and like fucking a) dont think it's happening and b) if anything is happening they're getting high which is the one thing that i do not want to happen.. i dont really care if they smoke when they DONT chill with me, well i do.. but like not like i can do anything about it... but like to smoke while they're with me.. i dunno why i dont like it.. just pisses me off.. prepared to get fucked up tonite tho 'cause my deal was that i'm smoking enough to green out if they fuck me over and show up high.. but either way i'm not excited for tonite that's it :\ hopefully tonite will go alright *cross fingers* later days for now.. ><
-- sor mui ! | | |
|  wayy super dooper sorry i havne't been blogging, surprise surprise! Kyle dumped me, that sucks I don't even know.. it was like in August.. SOO random! I'm still hurting actually a lot, i totally regret everything i said ): of course i want my baby in my life, Josh was right, I did reach the point where i just appreciated him for the little things I really want a new boyfriend to get over him. i just like that feeling.. i would LOVE to be the cold hearted single person who can just leave before falling in love with someone but it's truee i'm in love with falling in love! at least we made it so 8 months.. that was a lot longer than we thought. being single is not easy at all, i see old text messages i see him log on i see anything to do with him my heart hurts ): it's so unfair.. and i totally fucked up i can't even have him in my life 'cause i can't handle it at all! it's ridiculous.. *sigh* and my stupid friend daniel (who is also kyle's best friend) doesn't like telling him i hang out with him >.>" 'cause he just doesn't want kyle to know, i dont even understand that! it's ridiculous UGH. boys. and oh :) university started? so that's a good thing, i went to pick up daniel and kyle from their first day back at high school.. when kyle smoked OH MY GOD. i wanted to punch him so hard. but at least he stopped me from doing it, so he still cares.. at least.. i just kind of wanna know what he's thinking... but anyways back to university, it's been good, i really miss my friends who all left me ): MOSTLY all went to waterloo.. so i've been there pretty much every weekend haha it's actually ridiculous, and my university sweater collection has grown! now i have: western, ryerson, waterloo and laurier, when i go to queens i shall get one too! ryerson is so boring.. and i look like such a hobo always compared to everyone haha.. it sucks.. so hopefully i'll get over kyle soon i hate being hung up on something that can't be, and i'll survive uni... 'cause right now it is SOO not my thing, i got kicked out of some class for falling asleep too eh? anyways!! getting in trouble in class later days for now!
-- sor mui ! >< | | |
|  so my boyfriend has been driving me insane lately.. i love him very much but i just really dont think i'm a relationship person and i really can't deal with mean ppl, and i was talking to frank and he was just saying how kyle is like shy and whatever, and true he is then it just makes me feel like a horrible person for being mad at him 'cause then it just makes me feel so needy and every way it just makes me feel like shit like every other situation i always get myself in seriously.. but honestly for those single people who think they want a boyfriend, dont think that, just "deal" with them and leave them before it gets serious because JUST before the start of your relationship becoming official, THAT is that best part of any relationship. :) it's just so nice, it was like a simpler time, then BOOM you're in a relationship and you start giving a shit about each other and yeah i remember i was talking to josh [the older one] about this and how like you get the point where you start appreciating each other for the deeper things.. but i really don't know if i can last past this part >.>" and iunno i just overall feel bad 'cause i feel like a bitch.. i guess i'll just take a break for now and like just go along with whatever he wants.. it's not like i can do anything, he doesn't really seem to care much anyways or maybe he just doesn't know how to deal with it, i dont even know whateverrr.. CUPID IS STUPID. >< later days for now, i hope you guys have better luck with your relationships !
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|  so obvie, lots has happened since my last blog.. so lemme see.. my birthday party happened :) which was great and it worked out well, it didnt' get busted and what not, but I DONT COMPREHEND HOW THE FUCK FRANK ENDED UP SLEEPING OVER.. but anyways ashley, this fat cow who is after kyle i swear to god or will eventually become some kind of serial killer for him, finally got another bf so IT's leaving mine alone.. um.. valentines day happened haha but me and kyle didn't see each other 'til the tuesday :P and we skipped first period and had a breakfast date and he bought me my first rose :P it was quite cute things :) and wrote me a very very cute card. hm.. then me and kyle 3 month W00T but frank single handedly fucked that up, but we pree much skipped the whole day after that [the 26th] and celebrated it :) oh and i had gala W00T and i gotta hug mark so many times :) <3 very happy, and me and lavinia had a heart to heart and she told me how andy used to like me so much, which is really sweet 'cause i always thought i liked him a lot more than he did so it was nice.. hm.. after party was quite delightful, and we had a cute breakfast and cora's the next morning haha, hm.. roger the creepy prank caller omg. dont even wanna talk about him SERIOUSLY. and ehh.. did my G1 today :P but i failed that.. RAWR. so i have to do it again.. and yeah OH YEAH olympics!! lmfao GO CANADA!! :D i was with kyle and his family for the hockey game and kyle is soo adorable :) hm.. desmond.. dont even wanna talk about it, vivian and lily hate me again 'cause they're retarded, and i'm done caring honestly. whatever :\ so yeah i think i'm just gonna accept ryerson.. so yeah. and that's that ! nothing really much else, starting to get kinda stressed out over life [like school wise] and hopefully i do well :S iunno blehh OHH and i saw my best friend :) from NYF !! <3 but anneli and kyle were assholes about it... *sigh* iunno about kyle sometimes, he's so mean sometimes.. so yeah.. i'm gonna go now.. watching that 70s show so... later days for noww!!
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